Not my type? Or, . . i'm scared i'm not his type? Dunno whatever, . . . this happens all the time once i figure that i'm just daydreaming too much, i slowly back out of it. hahaha so stupid. that's just me i don't want to build up hope where there is only failure! I can handle being alone. I can handle it. I'm all ready for it anyway, . . . Inferiority, . . . intimidated I clam up and just, . .i dunno not in my element but it was my fault, . .why do i feel like i have to change myself to fit? Even if i got it, i will not be happy then i come out of it, . feeling deprived,. . feeling small Hate feeling small or, . . big lol it all comes down to the same thing I put in too much, . . and i get a lot less I dont' mind, . . . . but, . . when it happens over and over, it just gets boring and tiring and irritating why?, . . . why are people so blinded? I always wonder about this. Is one bad thing enough to void all the good things that come along with it? Or am i wrong? Is everything just simply not good enough? why can't people see through and notice the deeper things in life? Why so shallow? so trivial? ok, . hahaha i guess whoever is reading this now is super confused HAHAHA happy things? - not much just friends but i know who are good friends and who are bad friends but i'm too stupid to consider bad friends bad friends, . . . . . i'm just stupid ok i have no filter, . . i bare myself and get hurt but whatever HAHAH shit! just dont' worry abt it, . .dont worry abt it hahaha~~ | 
